Itchy Twitchy

Woohoo! Helllo RR!!

2010-04-26T23:09:00.000-07:00

I am happy to tell the whole world that i got a new jOB!
I am so impress with myself to tell someone that i am NOT AFRAID of being unable to look for another job because I AM CONFIDENT to find a job ANYTIME!
I am proud of myself that i am able to converse well with everyone of any level!
I am SO PROUD AND HAPPY OF MYSELF!

I Am going to learn how to be organized
Learn how to use MS Outlook
Learn how to take minutes
Take a course on LCCI
Read that business starting book
i want ACtion not TALK!

Me me and me

2010-04-19T01:06:00.000-07:00

How's married life? Everyone ask me that when i just gotten married
Till date, that question still exists
Now theres another trend of question "When do you want to have one?"
I hope i can have. Cuz i think i want to have. Let God decide

We are both married, see each other every nite
quarrel and make love every other nite.
He's busy with work most the time, and me with the laundry all the time.
My life = Family, my dog, friends and him
His Life = Work, Money Family and me.
That pretty much is what's going on in our life as the cycle repeats over and over again.

I very much wanted to start something new.
Be it opening an online store (iregardless if i make money or not!!)
At least i can tell people i Own a STORE!
Do my own crafting etc...
i will that that is pretty awesome.

But all i do was sit here and dream. But never realising it or even starting.
I WONDER WHY!!!

PS: MY DOG IS GETTING FRIENDLIER WITH OTHER DOGS!! way to go!

2009-12-02T18:29:00.000-08:00

My likes about him
can be really loving
say i love you
say i miss you
hugs you, kiss you and hold your hand
patient

Dislike
Just snap when in bad mood
doesnt noe how to shift treat me with respect
always lost patience
always short tempered
Impatient

i know that you are stressed with work
but that should not stress our relationship
am i not being understanding? i guess i am
I am angry at you for always not making a point to be punctual
Den i realise you have to run all over the place just to pick me up
i could have just traveled some distance so that you can save on that

Car
I really want to have a car. You said i could before
and now you say that you do not want me to rely dependantly on the car and be like everyone else.
i cant imagine i have to walk long distance to take a bus to mrt to work and the same thing back.

How will life be when i am married?

Prawn balls

2009-04-14T04:55:00.001-07:00

Meat Balls Recipes

2009-04-14T04:47:00.000-07:00

serves 6 pple
80g white bread without crust, torn into pcs
100ml Milk
1tbsp ghee
120 finely chopped onion
1 and quarter tsp salt
400g minced beef
300g minced pork
3 large egg yolks
half tsp black pepper
quarter tsp ground allspice
2 tbsps ghee
40g plain flour
750g beef broth or chicken stock
125ml thickened cream

Method
-preheat oven 180 degreec
-Place bread slices and milk in a mixing bowl. Set aside
-In a frying pan heat 1 tbsp ghee and saute the onion and a pinch of salt until the onions are soft. -Remove from the heat and set aside.
-In the bowl containing bread and milk, add minced beef and pork, egg yolks, remaining salt, black pepper, all spice and onions. Beat on medium speed for 1 to 2 min or knead well for 10 min
weight meatball into 30g portions and shape into balls. Place on a greased baking sheet
-Bake in the oven for 20 min.
-Heat the remaining gee in the pan over low heat and add the flour.
-Whisk until lightly browned, approx 1 to 2 min. Gradualy add the beef or chicken stock and whisk until sauce begins to thicken.
-Add the cream and continue to cook unti lthe gravy reaches the desired consistency. Remove the meatballs from the oven, cover with the gravy and serve.

Tired

2009-03-23T22:47:00.001-07:00

Just when you thought everything is so sweet and happy
The next thing you dun wana experience is to argue and get upset
And it just upsets me why the people i love enjoys taking me for granted like it is something that they so deserve and that i have got no value in their eyes or was it that i have simply been termed as 'HABIT' or a 'BECAUSE YOU LOVE ME, so i TRY to love you back'

It hurts real deep down under and i am tired...drained and exhausted with the rollercoaster rides of everyday's high and low..

What if

2009-03-17T19:42:00.000-07:00

i just quit my day job and do my own craftings..

oh no.. the more i browse those sites.. the more i am inspired!!

But i wonder if i can do that. a full time crafty person.. whole day Draw,paint,color,cut,stick,surf.

i am v much a not in control kinda fella. Hmm i wonder if i am old enough to CONTROL........

BUT DAMN i still feel so inspired!!!!!!! HELP!!

Just feeling so inspired on hand made stuffs all the sudden...

Happy anniversary

2009-03-17T08:33:00.000-07:00

It was quite a pleasant weekend. I am happy and feeling loved.
It just seem like we are both fully entertained by the shopping sales,
the dining - icecreams and the I T fair.

He spent loads of money on 2 of his Timberland shoes.. and almost bought the one above
that he so sadly have to part with when we leave the store.

We couldn't find sufficient reasons for him to buy three pairs. lol
But i promised to take a picture of this shoes so that he can stick it on the pillow and sleep with it, hopefully he can dream of himself wearing it out. hehe

Boy, Timberland shoes are so Comfy~~

My path

2009-02-04T07:31:00.000-08:00

The crumbly road ahead.
How do i get through?
Do i climb it?
Or simply change my route?

The Lazare Diamond 5k .4 VS1 Heheheh!!!

2009-02-04T07:15:00.000-08:00

Whahaha i got a .4 carat lazzaire diamond!!!!!

2009-01-05T05:59:00.001-08:00

WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
thats my xmas pressie!!!!

i wonder

2008-12-25T22:40:00.000-08:00

i duno how to change myself.
why?

THe Perfect WINE for the Perfect Dish

2008-12-18T01:36:00.000-08:00

Sauvignon Blanc – white or light fish, mild cheese, fruit
Chardonnay – grilled chicken, salmon, shellfish, and grilled fish, anything with a cream sauce.
Pinot Noir – light meats, chicken, grilled anything, salmon.
Merlot – pasta, red meat, duck, smoked or grilled foods
Zinfandel – tomato pasta dishes, pizza, pesto, red meats, chicken with heavy sauces
Cabernet Sauvignon – red meats, especially a juicy barbequed steak, grilled and smoked foods.
Syrah – red meats, spicy pizzas, herbed sauces on red meat, turkey
Dry Rosé - salads, pasta salads, bbq chicken or fish, light spicy foods

MY HO CHIN MIN CITY TRIP Pictures!!

2008-12-09T02:56:00.001-08:00

CLICK HERE FOR THE PICS!

Recap

2008-10-19T23:35:00.000-07:00

my heart is heavy
God says i will find my true love 3 years later, in the year of the rabbit
i say i think i am tired of all these.

BUT

i want to rearrange my life again.
it is true, that only when you improve yourself for the better, that things will be better!
I am saying this with a zest within me, that is glowing.
Too many things i need to change,
Temperamental, bad habits.. demanding.. childish.. etc etc.
And all these i have to change.

Most of all, my temper.
i have to be willing to accept what others say or comment, be it they are harsh or not.
It is something they see about you that you did not realise at all.
Therefore i will learn to be more good natured.
More patient with others.

Work Hard, explore things, have the sense of curiosity and determination is something i lack too
i need to start to be more hard working. Really. need to be more hard working
i need to work hard for what i want to achieve. Not just sit there and wait for miracles to happen.
Yes this is true. Money never fall from the sky. It is everywhere . you just need to go to it and pluck it.

Loving myself. and being happy my body and myself. This is only then you know how to love people correctly.

Remember the times you spend time in your aromatherapy room at nite. moisturisers.. and facial cleansers etc.. these are what makes me happy. and i just need to continue doing it. Diet. Yes. SOmething to watch out for. Something that really needs to be done.

Never be lazy. Yes. Never. Always try to improve yourself the way he inspire you.

October 15

2008-10-15T08:07:00.000-07:00

How how time flies!
i am really happy with where i am now. i got a new samsung Omnia, 16gb.. but now i think.. still tryin to get use to it. but i think i will enjoy the nicer graphic in iphone. :p

My Dearest just made me a pair of $600 Shades with degree. Lol since i cannot tolerate lenses. :p
So now me and him can walk by the Cherating or Redang beaches under the hot sun with our shades on!

I will post my shades once i got to wear it! ehhehe! so excited!

*question of the day:
Dad ask: Y is the house floor always so powdery?
Mom ans: blame that doggggg!!!! Sent it away!!! NAG NAG NAGNAGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG~~~~~~~~~~

:)

2008-07-16T21:47:00.000-07:00

Seriously, i have no idea what title to put at all.
I suppose a smile will say it all - that i am happy now.
Both Relationship and life and work.

See, no matter what it is best to live a fulfilling and entertained life.
I meet friends, buy stuffs, shopping.. Bbqing, download stuff, walk dog, run a little.. and leave just weekend for him and heh i work during the weekend with more cash in my pockets! its just fabulous isnt it. and my life is fully EnTERTained!!

Luv it. I wouldnt miss him much.
i wouldnt bug him much then
And he will be happy
cuz he will have time to miss me during the weekdays
I wouldnt lose myslef.
I no longer revolve msyelf around him

I am free of that twiney lovey kinda stuff.
i am beginning to find back my life, my friends, freedom and happiness
YEs being with him all the time is happy. But too much can get the whole balance toppled.
So now, a dash of love here and there kinda keep us happy together.

Guess what, we are going B i n t an this weekend with my friends!! and with him together!
I cant wait for weekend to come seriously!!!

My WA TRIPPY PICTURES are finally out!

2008-07-14T08:19:00.000-07:00

my WA Trippy!

Go Karty! Ladie driver lol

2008-06-02T10:20:00.000-07:00

May 31st 2008
Saturday went with sugarcane and my dear. Went to Some part of Johor and played the GO Karty at about 35 Ringgit for a bout 10-15min. It was so fantastic . So fast!~ im driving at a crazy speed ~ That wind wooshing at my face~! that big helmet's flipping upwards and felt like tipping off my head! My Turning around the bends was like OOooh and my DRIfT was like WHAhhhhh~ and my Smash was like AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH CRASSSSSHHH! into that stupid pile of tyres.. And i got this GloRious bruise (both legs pls) in my 1st lap on the course. dammit.. but it was GREAT FUNNNNNNNNNNNN :D

My Daughter

2008-05-30T03:02:00.001-07:00

My Daughter

Boy you must be staring wide eyed. No I’m referring to my dog. Breathe eh.

She is a adopted 4 yr old white medium size jack Russell cum Boston terrier with nothing but a very black face and a white strip from the forehead all the way to its nose. She is always hyper, though I bet there is a problem with one of her hind legs but the vet insists that is not a big problem. You should have seen her sprint for that disc yourself. You couldn’t believe why a ‘slow’ me have such a ‘fast’ dog. We do have similarities though. She is as greedy as I am. She MUST have a share of everything I eat.. that includes ice creams.. Potato chips, half boiled eggs, medium rare sirloins or rib eye steaks. Yes even raw lettuce, carrots and cabbage during my salad days…

She have a share of my stubbornness. She does silly things that makes one laugh and feel guilty about it later. Name you some examples.

She taunts cats and in return got scratched on the butt by one.

Got chased by cats in return which ended up me having to carry her all the way home because that cat got real mad and followed us all the way.

She runs too fast at the park that she trips, stumble and roll a 100 m distance away and you can see the dust that trail after her glorious crash.

She stares at you when you share her silly stunts with people and she will grumble in disapproval. She makes funny noises when she lie on her favorite cushion that I made for her, flipping from side to side and sleeping on her back with her four legs in the air. She twitch and whine in her dreams and even barks in her sleep. Who can be as silly as her. Though a dog takes a load of commitment. I will never give up on her-Silly gurl.

30 May 2008

2008-05-30T03:00:00.000-07:00

How fast days past, day by day, minute by minutes, seconds by seconds, they just don’t stop do they? In a blink of an eye, I am no longer young. My thoughts on getting married by the age of 25 is just merely a joke now that I look back. But I swear it wasn’t back then. I just see it in a total different perspective now. How one grows out of their nut heads too fast to realize and regret.

Did wonder what I have done over the years.. and where I am now.

Career wise, it was just a joke. I chose not to climb high when I got the chance. Not a good fella to work under pressure eh. If I were to be able to handle I might be a rich little girl earning tons per month working in a design co.. I might even be sitting upstairs, with my iphone and imac, clicking kewly on my one button mousy~, holding weekly Monday meetings sipping coffee. While my subordinates scurry under my commands or demands, whatever they say it might be. I won’t give a damn. Make them busy while I go shopping with my Gucci shades and tote, not forgetting that gorgeous pair of deadly stilettos at 10am.

Arhh rich life.. But a tiring one I swear. Such things come with a price. A dinner with someone is still PR work.. You have a outing with your people and that’s called Team Building.. argh..when will you ever get real time of your own to just dine with someone you’re completely comfortable and where you can pour out all your real feelings or even have a weekend getaway, holding hands strolling by the beach in some neighboring country where no one even know where the hell we come from.

Guess I’m just much more carefree and comfy staying low. One good boss is just all you need.

I think I am a real lucky girl. My life is always filled with the good times. The bad were just too insignificant to remember~. I thank the above for all the great karma I’m getting. Boy I must have been such a good Johnny fella in my past.

Love life hmm.. where can I start. Everything has it’s ups and downs. There is no such things as a couple without arguments. It is only with argument that both learn to understand each other better. Learn to accommodate each other’s needs and wants, try achieving things together, heading towards the same goal is what couples have to learn, in order to live in harmony in days to come.

I love him and he loves me too. We have great differences in both religion and character and personal goals in life. He wishes for more money therefore he puts nothing but career in the first place. Whilst a romantic me feed and thrives on his care, concern, understanding and love, wishing nothing more but a simple comfortable and carefree life, oblivious to the surroundings.

You might be asking if a career minded man like him even have any time for me. That is one thing I am most pleased with him. He squeezed all his free time to make his trip down to meet me even just for a hour or three. That is touching enough.

We both love each other’s jokes and humor one another often enough to keep our arguments low. Arguments about how one or another neglected each other’s needs or wants or even understanding is what made us realize and we try to change for the better in mind of making our partner happier. It is never a bad idea to sit down and talk it out. Shouting at each other just won’t work.

Family life, well like what the older generation said. When children grow up. They fly away. But if you are to take it the American way, they can’t be happier when their child moves away. I grew up, still with my wings clipped till the day I marry aka ‘Fly’. I cooked them meals and welcome them with hugs when they come home. Just when you realize there is no one to comfort you when you are down, then will you realize that they are the most supportive after all. Love them before you can no more.

Sometimes I do find my life too simple to believe it is true. Work five days a week, finish by half pass five. A stroll with my dog and prepare dinner for my parents is just what happens next.

Life just cannot be any simpler than this here for a 27 year old lad everyone might think.

“Where are all the Will power, Zest and Energy in me that can conquer the world?” A little voice squeaks within me.

Well I absolutely did think of that before. If I am to set up a store and all, run my own business… Maybe go for further studies and such. Well. I do not know where the ‘W.Z.E’ have gone. I think it was just never born inside me. I did thought of touring around the world though. That thought always inspires me to safe, safe, nothing more but safe.

Happi Happy

2008-05-08T03:00:00.001-07:00

I just refreshed my lap top. Was pretty Impress with this Dell hehehe Small, light weighted as compared to my lousy previous. hahah. No longer need stuff that external wireless into my oldie all the time. Now its really just PLUG and USE! wehehehe! luv it luv it. The touch pads were so comfy too! esp the left click and right click button. Soft and Sweet~

Today i multi task ,

Wactch me work those Thang!

Mr Pinky Crocs

2008-05-08T02:57:00.000-07:00

Was walking in the mRt tunnel when i came across this interesting guy, with the PINKY CrocS!

my 24th bday cake..

2008-05-08T02:53:00.000-07:00

Somehow its getting cheaper and cheaper.. smaller and smaller....... happen to get my bluetooth working again.. so loading last nov's pic. hahah I love to watch my SPIDer MaN power Up the Candle!

adv theory test

2008-04-29T04:55:00.000-07:00

going to have my exam tomoro.
Pray hard hard. i havent even finish going through the book yet!!!
arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
AAAAmmmmeeeennnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn OOMIiituoooofuoooo...HMMMMM

review

2008-04-15T07:48:00.000-07:00

how life changes
how it twines and blends in with everyone else's life

No i do not enjoy brooding
No i do not enjoy listening to the same naggy stuffs
stop asking to to go back to where i left
i am not and Never heading there.
I never go back on my words.
Once its set its set.
Dun bother to ask me again.
i hate it.

Yes you can tell. im bothered.
i do not understand why i am

why should i be bothered?
i shouldnt be.

i use to know what i want
and get what i want

why am i not getting what i want and deserved?
am i getting it but not contented?
or am i really not getting it?

Thoughts....

2008-03-25T07:45:00.000-07:00

It feels strange. stranger than and stranger...

No longer is the fella i used to know for years
wheres the cutie pie i once lurve?
no longer is.
Guess the environment pollutes it. hahaha

No longer feels the same.
Ms tension sits in between our conversations when we are side by side
She seems to enjoy being the big fat lady that stares at me with mean small eyes while i converse...making me feel all uneasy.i wish i was home. Conversations no longer feel the same... Hate her for that.

Funny

2008-03-25T07:40:00.000-07:00

i dun understand y i feeling happy today.
celebrate independance?
hmm..

saw him on msn. but didnt bother to write him anything.
lets just leave him at that.

HOoooooooooooooooOOOOOOOOOOh!
Tomoro another conference web meeting.
HAPPY, excited and nervous.

hmmm.. cant wait to end and extend contract!!
in fact i have so much to say! i am so happy with my salary!!! im geting a month bonus! wooohoo! MY boss is my SUNSHINE!!

I LOVE MYSELF n my LIFE!

ALL SMILES~

2008-03-25T07:24:00.000-07:00

i had dinner over my sis house. It was sushi day
surprise surprise ended up its her bday..
for the second time consequtively, its me who buy her yet another same old yummy fruit cake
i aint surprised...

CHomp CHomp chomp. i gobbled my sushi with zest.
'Stole' her Chocolate factory dvd and gave her in return another bar of kinda beunos.

BF said " i think i will go home tonite"
I said " All right!" happily and open the car door.

i suppose he was taken aback that i didnt seem to mind him leaving me sleeping alone in my bed when all the other time i will give him my usual pity cat eyes pleading him to accompany me for the night.

Well i suppose like any other man.. it twitches them the other way round.
he cant bare to leave me.
Didnt drive off until he saw me at take my lift.

Hmm...

Why when you treat guys nice.. they take it for granted.
and just when you decide to lift your hands off them
they came clingy.

They enjoy getting things they felt they are losing touch with.
well my dear.
Watch out and better Keep up with my pace!

PS: i WALKED HOME FROM the JP interchange ahh.. LEG 'EGG!'!!

The Depressing Cycle

2008-03-24T09:21:00.001-07:00

24^th Mar 2008

I have lost myself in his world.

He disappoints me most of the time

I hate to say that

But he did

I am happy with every little thing he does for me

Am I asking for too little or too much?

Because I am upset deep within.

The way he treats me

Do I deserve ?

A conflict of interest and contradiction

Are we meant to be together

I wonder.

Or should he look for someone independent

Not a dependant me.

Or is it time I change, to become someone stronger and more independent.

I thought I was…until I met him

She said I have lost myself

Yes I thought I have lost my mind.

She said I used to be colorful

Yes now I am just a piece of grey

Something so jaded

Somekind dulled

Someone no one noticed

What is happening to me?

What should I do?

Time to move on

Or time to change

I do not know which way to go

Yes he is busy

so overloaded with work

Yes I am free

So much of nothing to do

I ask for his dedication

He asked for my understanding

I ask for quality time together

He pleas he have more time

Oohh~

We are so headed for the cliff!

I thought of writing you a picture book

And it states

I AM:

DEPENDANT and with a pooch

I AM:

FILLED of LOVE, CARE & CONCERN

I GLOW:

With CONSTANT SHOWER of TENDER LOVING CARE

I NEED:

TIME, CONSOLATION, SUPPORT, LOVE not forgetting SECURITY

You set butterflies in my stomach when you bring me for movies almost everytime we met. Didn’t know that was ‘Partor’ period.

I was elated when you surprised me with MORTON Steakhouse on our very first and only anniversary.

I do not mind my feet blown double size (due to that poisonous mosquito sting)in China which have me ended up washing your laundry in the hotel. I am happy to be with you- wherever you are.

I was so happy you celebrate my birthday in Thailand.

I feel so comforted when you hold up my hand up to smell and kiss when we are in the car. I felt like the luckiest women in the whole world.

My heart melts when you tell me you wanted to buy me a ring but couldn’t afford it months back

But somehow things changed…

ME: A walk with me at the park with my dog please?

YOU: I am sleepy

ME: Can’t you help me with my stuffs?

YOU: You should have requested so.

ME: …I am upset with you…

YOU: Ok we reached. Are you getting out of the car?

ME: Hello we are having a problem here *waves*

YOU: * SILENCE * (“ what do you expect me to say? You have your point”)

ME: Wake up dear

YOU: Didn’t you hear the alarm went off earlier? I am late.

ME: I am free today

YOU: Help me with my expense report la~

ME: I am very bored at home…

YOU: Help me check my stocks la~

ME: Where are you bringing me today?

YOU: Where do you want to go? (“ Because I am too tired to think”)

I have nothing else to say.

P.S I still love you…

ARGHhhh save me from this misery...

2008-03-13T07:12:00.000-07:00

y am i living life so monotonous..........
everyday finish work,
go home
walk my dog
watch tv
prepare dinner for 3
sweep the floor
watch tv
sleep

Y SO SIAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
but some other pple dun seem to mind doing those stuffs repeatedly everyday
and think that it is actually an enjoyment?
it is really funny to think of that... How can they possibly think of THAT as FUN or even ENJOYMENT

Am i asking for too much??

It is funnyyyy i just dun get it...
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SOmeone said.. im someone who constantly need companion..
but dun like to be tied down..

Seriously i dun think a relationship can work well if one is too possesive of the other.
It just creates an imbalance and wreck the whole relationhip.

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She ask me y not get married and have kids. den have a fuller life.
i was thinking.. after my breakup with my ex.. i no longer have a positive thinking of marriage
i no longer want to think of marriage unless a bf propose.

Kids.. im afriad i might treat my kid as a dog.. command the child this and that.. like what i did to my nephew last time. and she complain to his mother. JUST THAT ONE TIME ONLY ok....
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My business trip

2008-02-24T17:10:00.000-08:00

on Business SQ is KEWL....
to think i cannot even find where they kept the TV and the dinner table (psst.. its tucked neatly on the comfy arm seats and gawd i didnt even noe! but on the way back. that fella beside me was as dumbo as moi! lol. ops)

Business trip Was infact pretty fun!
Work, dine, Massage, Booze, Massage, work, dine & Booze
Any life better than this?

LOL
I didnt even have time to shop for gifts for others.
IM SORRY WC
Its got to be ENERTAIN ENTErTAIN.. and entertain

the koreans were powerful..
two shots of Bomb Drop.. im gone (Soju + Liqour + beer)
oh my god.. it taste good, but deadly
I enjoyed that night though, everyone had their fun

At the end of the whole event,
i got praised.
i just hope i got a raise at the end. lol

updates

2008-02-13T07:51:00.000-08:00

ABT MY DOG
EHH.. ah girl's legs got better,
we suspect her thinking is ---- NO RAW HIDE TO LICK = LICK MY OWN toes
SO her toes fur all gone.
SO kana wear that funnel
SO dun dare to come down the staircase in my house
SO first time my dad laugh at her

BUT SHE IS OK NOW cuz got 14" RAW HIDE TO LICK TO DEATH

ABT ME
In another night's time, ill be flying to Thailand for my Conference meeting
The agenda? Causes one to SIgh..
ITS JAMMED PACKED with all the talks..
Duno if i should be happy or sad.
But one thing for sure
IM THRILLED TO TAKE THAT BUSINESS CLASS flight
im Collecting my Kris Flyer for the first time
and IM getting my MARRIOTT reWARDS FOR THE FIRST TIME TOO!!!!
hahaha ok

ABT VDAY
Gawd.. TOday i fininsh work at 8. Took a cab home. Charges? bill it to company Teehehee
I tot i will be seeing him tonite.
too bad. Im wrong.
Hes not meeting me..
so Tomoro will be the last day he gonna see me for the next six days.
wonder if his even gona get me anything
Im not geting him anything
cuz im his present every day and nite .LOL

im gona close off. its 12am... this piana jazz is driving me to bed a little....... my luggage is not yet packed... i got some clothes laid on the bed though......... gota sort it out a little........
Though i can work from home tomorrow.. i think i rather not...
TOO StREESS cuz network to office is god damn slow................
can dieeeeeeeeee just to read one mail.........

aiya.. i wonder if i should bring my personal laptop too hehehe. else cannot msn.. BOOHOOO~

my poor pooch

2008-02-01T22:39:00.000-08:00

Today's a Sat. i planned to go blading with my friend.
In the end i didnt.
My dear girl's leg is hurt, and with her constant licking of her poor paws, its never gonna get well.
So this is what i did. Hopefully it will be better. But i noe she hates what i did to her cuz i even Funneled' her head so that she cant reach.

I think im going to get her some cutie shoes . hehehe
I cant wait to take a video of her with her shoes on. Im sure shes gonna be hoping around and look pretty awkward. haha.

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Today is spring clean. i cleared out a drawer for my bf's clothes. i wash them, fold them up and keep them. i love being neat. i just love neat things. and i fight to keep neat.

im sitting here with my clothes half folded, my laundry half washed.. table half tidied. i noe these work cant last me till evening.. im too fast for such shits. HAHAHA!!!

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Ahh.. love lounge musiz soooooooooooo much. really made me feel very much BETTER!!!!

aight. im coming back in a jiff. Let me get a little more stuff done now!
pewwwwwwwwwww!!!

*vanish*...................

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2008-01-27T17:32:00.003-08:00

25 January 2008

Sun rises.

“You fall asleep yesterday?” I texted.

“Yes dear, sorry I didn’t pick up. Sorry I love you” he replied

“Nevermind, its ok…” I texted

“Thank you, I love you” he replied

“I miss you” I texted again

“I miss you too” he replied

And we stop at there…

4:12pm

God I cant wait to get out of the office,

Yet im paranoid of going back home.

What can I do at home?

It is lonely at home.

It is so quiet at home.

If only my dog speaks and not let me talk to her like as if im a complete loser.

How to kill time?

IM AFRAID of WATCHING TV

Ive been watching tv for the whole night for the past four days!

Its driving me crazy!

No one is available to dial. Forget about my female friends.. Sure to be working and having her own relationship problem.

My good friend? His prolly still cutting vege or heating up the pan.

My bf? Most likely he cant make it to meet me either…

GAWD! Sat ill be cycling with my collegue and prolly meet him by 8 or 9 to eat and ZZ and Sunday I will have to work full day..

Y cant I spend my weekends with him!

4:17pm

Aight. Im outta here.

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2008-01-27T17:30:00.003-08:00

24 January 2008

Today has been the 3rd night I sleep alone on my bed. The feeling of finally having a tiny bed all to myself is - good. I smiled contentedly to myself, sweeping my bed with my ‘garbage angle’ moves while my dog stared at me with raised brows.

Her eyes revealed my feelings from deep within - Bored, lonely and i cant help but repeat myself, bored.

I fumbled around my bed, searching for the slightest whiff of his existence. But to no avail. I lay on my bed, listening to the whooming sound of my fan, as though the flannels of the fan is about to fly out like a blades of a blending machine. That might be a way to die, but I’m not letting that happen to me.

Arhh..Cant help but start imagining. Yes I have nothing better to do.

Where is my pillow where I can lie on his arm the whole night?

Where is my big bolster that I can hug, snuggle and smell?

Where is my lullaby snore that drift me to sleep every other nights?

To think of it.. why never I realize that my fan is making such loud noise whenever he sleep over? Haha

“I miss you” I texted

Incoming message “I miss you too”

“I miss you” I texted again

Incoming message “im sorry dear, I will call you”

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2008-01-27T17:30:00.001-08:00

11 Jan

I lost my motivation to wake up today

As if im losing something

And I tot to myself now…why is it so difficult for you to apologise

And again I also think… is this worth to be angry over this matter.

No its not anger that I feel. Its t more like it to be disappointment.

I have a double disappointment yesterday. I think that is upsetting enough already. I understand you have a lot of work.. but pls dun give me false hope. At this point of time I dun see any variable reason for you to be angry. For I felt I am in a much better position to get all upset with you.

Yes you wanted to meet me when you got the time and plan it at 7. I couldn’t make it at city hall then.. cuz im at home at only at 6.30. You said you cannot make it to make my specs and requested just for dinner.. I was a little sad that I cant get my specs done with you for the fourth time .. but im fine just a dinner after 8.30pm.. I was famished by then.. I was all dressed up.. sitting in my house waiting. . only to pick your call at 9pm telling me youre not going for dinner with me.. I got upset. I wonder y I dress up for you. .. how stupid I was to listen to you. Dress nice for you is wat you said yesterday..i did. But you didn’t comply to your promise (bring me to make specs and have dinner) I wonder y I was so stupid.

You really enjoy making me wait like a fool.

All these happen and you dun initiate to apologise.

I have to ask for an apology from you instead.

I sniffled, finding the whole incident so ridiculous.

Yes I thought to myself. Maybe I should just as well be very busy with all my own schedules. Y should I care about you? Y should I WASTE my time WAITING FOR YOU? Do I still have to carry on making a fool of myself. Revolving my life around you and you can just look for me whenever you have the time?

But y cant I do it? Ive been complaining to myself so many times already. Telling myself to make my own life more entertaining and busy, in fact MORE BUSY than you.

Y in the end I still WAIT FOR YOU?

Maybe im too childish. To get all upset and stuff about what you did. About your ego and yoru busy-ness

Maybe I should just take a break from you…

Ill talk to you again when I feel I no longer have so much feeling for you.

So that I will be numb to your busy-ness and your constant break of promises and no manners and respect towards me.

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2008-01-27T17:29:00.000-08:00

10^th January 2008

Dear,

I am sorry I did not pick up your call this morning.

I am unhappy with you.

I was struggling with myself…

How will you feel if I am busy and hung up the phone even without saying a ‘I love you’ or a polite ‘goodbye’ ? for the 6^th time? I call you because I really miss you.. yet all I get is a hung up tone at the end.

How will you feel if I say I will call you later and never did as promised? I lost count on how many times it has happened…

How will you feel when you get upset with the above problems and all I ask is ‘Whats wrong with you?’ with no trace of pity, yet get agitated and annoyed with you and all the fuss you made ALL THE TIME?

Y can’t you just wrap me in your arms and ask me what is upsetting or hurting me?

Y can’t you just spend 1 second more to tell me ‘I love you’ or a ‘goodbye’ at the end of the call? That could have complete my day even if you can’t meet me that nite…

Not that I always want to make a fuss…but yet again I have to remind you..its all the small little things that woman pay attention to..

I am glad you kiss me and say ‘I love you’ when you wake up. I no longer feel upset right in the morning. It was so much better than waking up seeing you rushing off without any kiss or hug, leaving me feel all abandoned and lost with no tender loving and care…

I am very happy that I get to see you almost everyday, whenever you can make it for a after 8pm dinner with me, I gain loads of weight.. but im still happy you made your way down just to meet me…

I understand that you are very busy. I support that a man should always be hardworking. I try my best not to complain for this is what I have to learn.

Last day of the year.

2007-12-30T22:23:00.000-08:00

Here i am, sitting in my aircon room with Jazz playing in the background after a nice shower.
Doing my manicure and pedicure, and applying my moisturisers
What can be better than all these lavish pampering for myself?
I laughed, self amused.

Those were the days when i always do the above things. Having so much control over my own priorities. Loving myself more than anything else. Have i lost it now?

After spending a week with my bf. i realise what i have been missing. - SPACE .
i wonder again. Y am i wasting so much of my youth and time trying so hard to be with him all the time, when I SHOULD be giving myself some time, doing things that i want to do and SHOULD do. This in another way also give him ample of time to do what he wants, then all will be balanced out.

mememe

2007-12-28T01:19:00.001-08:00

Things i hope i would have done

1) committed enough to exercise
2) blading
3)Swimming
4) get a driving liscence
5) cooking
6) baking?

Been staying in my bf house this week.
Absolutly BORing to death..
but again to think if i were in my house.. i mite have even decayed..
i duno..

Very funy... how come i revolve my life around my bf?
even though my bf admit that he revolve his life around me.. like after work, he will come looking for me. and he barely got time for other things besides work and me work and me.
But at least he have more work to do than to be bored because i am still working, which will never happen to me.. cuz obviously i have more time to think of him and wait for him. i finish work at 4.20, monday to friday. while his work almost never ends.. and it stretches 7 days a week..

I need someone who is as free as me to join the club. anyone as free as me besides the tai tais???
haiz...

beware the batBoy

2007-12-28T01:06:00.000-08:00

At this point of time.. you wonder if this is a bee or a batman.haha well..definitely batboy.

this is my bf's nephew. pretty cute huh.

:D Best Xmas week EVER

2007-12-26T19:16:00.000-08:00

A says - Oi y you everyday online this week?

Me says - CUZ I WORK FROM HOME for the WHOLE week plus 2 no work day

A says - ....y you so good one.. i still got to go office

Me says - LOL envious rite. You need to be. I still have alot like this coming MUAhhaa
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I read from somewhere. That ONE needs to have gratitude for the things that comes along their way. Even if it was a bad experience or incidents..It happen for a cause for a reason.

I duno y. All the years that made me who i am .. i am really grateful, for all the good and the bad.
People who have influenced me.. come and go. But once influenced, will become part of me.
In fact im really very lucky that everything is smooth sailing :)

Someone use to say.. 'Your life might not be as smooth or lucky, if you are not so ignorant of the things happening around you."

Sometimes i think it is GOOD TO BE IGNORANT cuz you get by each day not bothering whose trying to step over the other or whose planning to kill who. But of course you muz not be the one who started it off. You minus away your troubles and worries and you will end up like me, feeling like the most lucky person ever lived on earth. hahaha.

Live each day happy, give the others no trouble or sadness, and you wil be blessed with the same!

xoxox

my sleeping dog

2007-12-15T10:46:00.000-08:00

look at her..so shameful.. i duno y she sleeps like this..
tot dogs dun sleep like that..............

All smiles~!

2007-12-15T08:47:00.001-08:00

Today i wake up happy.
LIke a fresh new day started.
and everything will go right from now onwards.

As usual, morning routine..my notti doggi will spy me.
Once i stir awake, roll over and try to peep at her with my eyes 4/5 open, she will start to make noise.. whimper.. scratch my bed, hinting me to take her for a stroll.
i really duno what was my body reaction..
she just know when i am awake. and when i am asleep..

i did laundry today too..(gawd.. i duno y.. his clothes is so damn difff to iron.. or maybe im rusty.. )

after everything.. i cant wait to go out shopping.
i booked someone for the day to do shopping with me.
its like ages since i do shopping NOT window shopping.
hehehe

SOmehow i have the urge to dress pretty with makeup. Maybe i was feeling very happy and bright.Seriously today was a very hapy day to me.. i still cant make out y..

Got changed and everything and called that lazy ass on the phone.
and that bum bum was still lazing on the bed. haha
but in the end. that bum bum reached earlier than me. sorry!

But i suppose we had fun. shopping for my LIP gloss was FUN.
its my most expensive lip gloss in my 25 years. lol. but the most contented one
its got the PLumping effect that make my lips look fuller and more kissable. hehe
i LOVE IT

WC was praising me again and again. saying i look very pretty today. which really ambarass me. I just duno how to react towards compliments and i felt so awkward when he purpursely stare at me. lol. Bringing him along for a shopping trip is the best. hehe, like the best shopping partner. Better than with my gfs.. beter than with my sis. hehe

I bought him a little early xmas polo t shirt.. thinking i was so good..
only to realise in the end he bought me a xmas gift tat was 3 times more ex and boy that made me feel bad.. haiz.

anyway i am in high high high spirits today! wondering what tomorrow brings...
hehehe

XOXO!

:D All smiles

2007-12-10T04:33:00.000-08:00

Months ago i met someone
who captures my heart.
Though older than me by a whopping 9 years..
we clicked extremely well.

Capable, career minded - a character that inspires me
filled with passion and heat - a moment that i cannot live without
Talkative and funny - thats y we click so well
Knows when to tickle my toes - we argue.. but got even closer
He hugs you close, smile and say thanks and appreciates for every thing you do for him at the end of the tiring nite. - that makes your day so worth spending.

its pretty funny how your thinking got affected by the things that happen around you..
In my first relationship.. i wanted to marry.. but time was never rite..
In my 2nd relationship... i thought i am marrying this guy... but i was wrong
and this 3rd one.. i dare not even think about it anymore..
i gues.. i dun wanna get hurt.. or disapoint myself any longer...

I just want to be happy.
and yes i am. he brought me together with him overseas business trips..
we drive to kuantan with friends and have alot of fun
he brings me thailand and gets me to all the places i wanted to visit there on my birthday.
he gives me happiness.

This year.. my health plundged..
my gastro was all heywire..Bills mount to thousands..
im lucky i got my company to back me up..
I am still happy. for the life i got.
Just wish my health is back up again..
I remember reading some chinese zodiac book.. gawd.. its really true.. this year is ill health for me. haha.. since when i start to believe such thigns. hehe

Anyway You noe.. lately im into the ebay thingy..
i sell phones.. i sell xmas cards.. i sell teddy bears. hahaha
and its pretty fun. Selling and making some little Kaching!

I shall stop for today.. going to attach some pretty thai pics. hehe

ahhh im back

2007-12-10T04:27:00.000-08:00

After the ups and downs..
I am back here again.
Had a little trouble trying to remember my own email account and password for my own blog. its a bit of a joke.. i have too many numbers and email add to remember...

Well.. its been months..
my use to be bf is no longer..
Still i have to thank him for all the time and memories he've given me.
Else i wouldnt have tasted it at all.

Its like being in a VIP cruise. so lux and comfy. and suddenly you ended up at a waterfall where everything plunges.. then you struggle to breathe.. then when you swam to the coast.. you realise youre not the only one on that stranded island. Someone picks you up and takes you on another journey again.

ahh lifes all ups and down..
now youre living all good and comfy..
does not mean youll be like this forever...
everything changes..

ahhh lets just not talk about this... Lets talk about what im up to nowadays!

gwen stefani- the sweet escape

2007-05-04T20:30:00.000-07:00

(feat. Akon)[Gwen]
If I could escape I would but,
First of all, let me say
I must apologize for acting stinkin'treating you this way
Cause I've been acting like sour milk all on the floor
It's your fault you didn't shut the refrigerator
Maybe that's the reason I've been acting so cold?
If I could escape, and recreate a place that's my own world
and I could be your favourite girl(forever),
Perfectly together
Tell me boy now wouldn't that be sweet? (sweet escape)
If I could be sweet, I know I've been a real bad girl (I'll try to change)
I didn't mean for you to get hurt (whatsoever)
We can make it better, And tell me boy wouldn't that be sweet? (sweet escape)
[Akon]I want to get away, to our sweet escape
I want to get away, yeah
[Gwen]
You held me down, I'm at my lowest boiling point
Come help me out, I need to get me out of this joint
Come on let's bounce, counting on you to turn me around
Instead of clowning around, let's look for some common ground
So baby, times get a little crazy
I've been gettin' a little lazy, waitin' on you to come save me
I can see that you're angry by the way that you treat me
Hopefully you don't leave me, wanted you with me

[CHORUS]If I could escape, and recreate a place that's my own world
and I could be your favourite girl(forever), Perfectly together
Tell me boy now wouldn't that be sweet? (sweet escape)
If I could be sweet, I know I've been a real bad girl (I'll try to change)
I didn't mean for you to get hurt (whatsoever)
We can make it better, And tell me boy wouldn't that be sweet? (sweet escape)
Woohoo, YeehooWoohoo, Yeehoo (If I could escape)
Woohoo, yeehoo (If I could escape)
Woohoo, Yeehoo
Cause I've been acting like sour milk all on the floor
It's your fault you didn't shut the refrigerator
Maybe that's the reason I've been acting so cold?
[CHORUS]If I could escape, and recreate a place that's my own world
and I could be your favourite girl(forever), Perfectly together
Tell me boy now wouldn't that be sweet? (sweet escape)
If I could be sweet, I know I've been a real bad girl (I'll try to change)
I didn't mean for you to get hurt (whatsoever)
We can make it better, And tell me boy wouldn't that be sweet? (sweet escape)
Woohoo, Yeehoo (I wanna get away, get away)Woohoo, Yeehoo (To our sweet escape)Woohoo, Yeehoo (I wanna get away)Woohoo, Yeehoo (Yeah)Woohoo, YeehooWoohoo, Yeehoo

nickelback-far away

2007-05-04T09:35:00.000-07:00

This time, This placeMisused, MistakesToo long, Too lateWho was I to make you waitJust one chanceJust one breathJust in case there's just one left'Cause you know,you know, you know ![CHORUS]I love youI loved you all alongAnd I miss youfar away too far too longI keep dreaming you'll be with meand you'll never goStop breathing if I don't see you anymoreOn my knees, I'll askLast chance for one last dance'Cause with you, I'd withstandAll of hell to hold your handI'd give it allI'd give for usGive anything but I won't give up'Cause you know,you know, you know ! [CHORUS]I love youI loved you all alongAnd I miss youfar away too far too longI keep dreaming you'll be with meand you'll never goStop breathing if I don't see you anymoreSo far away, far awayBeen far away for far too longSo far away, far awayBeen far away for far too longBut you know, you know, you knowI wantedI wanted you to stay'Cause I neededI need to hear you sayThat I love youI loved you all alongAnd I forgive youFor being away for far too longSo keep breathing'Cause I'm not leaving you anymore,Believe it,Hold on to me and never let me go.Keep breathing'Cause I'm not leaving you anymore,Believe it,Hold on to me and never let me go...Keep breathing'Cause I'm not leaving you anymore....Believe it,Hold on to me and never let me go...!BigG KisZ A BigG Fan Of Nickelback!

Paula de Anda- walk away

2007-05-04T07:53:00.000-07:00

I'm gonna remember youYou're gonna remember meI'm gonna remember youYou're gonna remember meI saw you with your new girl just yesterdayAnd I feel that I must confessEven though it kills me to have to sayI'll admit that I was impressedPhysically just short of perfectionGotta commend you on your selectionThough I know I shouldn't be concernedIn the back of my mindI can't help but questionDoes she rub you feetWhen you've had a long dayOr Scratch your scalpWhen you take out your braidsDoes she know that you like tooPlay PS2 till 6 in the morningLike I doI can't explain this feelingI think about it everydayAnd even though we've moved onIt gets so hard to walk away(I'm gonna remember youYou're gonna remember me)Walk Away, Walk Away(I'm gonna remember youYou're gonna remember me)I can't forget how we used to beOur life from day to dayHoping maybe you'll come backAnd though I tell myself not to be afraidTo move on but it seems I can'tBut no other man has given me attentionIt ain't the same as your affectionThough I know I should be contentIn the back of my mindI can't help but questionDoes he kiss me on the foreheadBefore we playShow up on my doorstep(with a bouquet)Does he call me in the middle of the dayIt's okayJust to say hey baby I love youLike you used toI can't explain this feelingI think about it everydayAnd even though we've moved onIt gets so hard to walk away(I'm gonna remember youYou're gonna remember me)Walk Away, Walk Away(I'm gonna remember youYou're gonna remember me)Walk Away, Walk Away(I'm Gonna Remember YouYour Gonna Remember Me)I can't explain this feelingI think about it everydayAnd even though we've moved onIt gets so hard to walk away(I'm gonna remember youYou're gonna remember me)Walk Away, Walk AwayRemember You(I'm gonna remember youYou're gonna remember me)(I'm gonna remember youYou're gonna remember me)

Starting Monday

2007-04-19T19:50:00.000-07:00

Gotten a Job with this MNC company
very happy to have gotten it.
haha

Starting on Monday!

New dressing table

2007-03-30T07:38:00.001-07:00

99 bucks. this is wat i get. hehe

my cupboard hahahaaaaaaaa

2007-03-30T07:31:00.000-07:00

Before~

AftER

lily allen - Smile

2007-03-26T01:30:00.000-07:00

When you first left me I was wanting more

But you were fucking that girl next door,

what ja do that for

When you first left me

I didn't know what to say

I never been on my own that way,

just sat by myself all dayI was so lost back then

But with a little help from my friends

I found a light in the tunnel at the end

Now you're calling me up on the phone

So you can have a little whine and a moan

And it's only because you're feeling alone

At first when I see you cry,yeah it makes me smile, yeah it makes my smile

At worst I feel bad for a while,but then I just smile I go ahead and smile

Whenever you see me you say that you want me back

And I tell you it don't mean jack, no it don't mean jack

I couldn't stop laughing, no I just couldn't help myself

See you messed up my mental health

I was quite unwell

I was so lost back then

But with a little help from my friends

I found a light in the tunnel at the end

Now you're calling me up on the phoneSo you can have a little whine and a moan

And it's only because you're feeling alone

At first when I see you cry,yeah it makes me smile, yeah it makes my smile

At worst I feel bad for a while,but then I just smile I go ahead and smile

lalalalalalalalalalalalalalalala lalala

At first when I see you cry,yeah it makes me smile, yeah it makes my smile

At worst I feel bad for a while,but then I just smile I go ahead and smile

lalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalala

Things to do

2007-03-26T01:16:00.000-07:00

1) Starhub Bills
2) Roller blade
3) Go visit the Kelong!
4) Visit the Noah Arks Farm!
5) Changing of CA's mobile plan
6) Try out the peninsular carpark. Heard its kewl
7) Can i have some curry Crab?
8) wat about Day day Seatmboat with the pub girl?
9) Sakura sushi @ east coast?
10) Need my Dog Shampooo....shes getting stinky!! (PS i just shaved her again!!)
11) East COast steam boat?
12) KtV
13) West coast Doggie Run (dun forget to free the turtles!
14) Can you help me to remove the white elephant aircon?? or can you fix it? plus i need some curtains... something to make my room nice nice heheheeee
15) Chevrons€ anyone?
16) I need my new cabinet from IKEA $99 Three drawers
17) East coast hawker? yum yum
18) Fix the HD ext.. i forgot what the hell this is
19) Need my XP works..
20) Upgrade Laptop to Vista
21) BAK KUA mmmmmm yumy
22) Temple anyone?
23) Dog gate
24) Cheong cheong cheong?
25) what color this time for my room?
26) GET MONEY BACK FROM THE !@$% heheh

my roommy

2007-03-23T20:23:00.000-07:00

Before and after of my room. lol

Used to look like such a store room!

Doctor day

2007-03-19T01:51:00.001-07:00

Went visiting the doctor.
gotten my monthly medication.
Amount of time taken?
approx four hours
and the title belongs to my dear neighbourhood clinic - Jurong polyclinic

Like most people say - " by they time it is my turn.. i have already turned well"

Shagadday

2007-03-16T09:48:00.000-07:00

woke in the morning

brought that punk to take bus to interchange to have my doggie membership made.

So off fly that 88 bucks but i got back three bottles of dermatrix for free.

Watever

Anyway it is said to improve skin.. so we have to see one month later ya.

Den we took bus to grandma place.

Hot weather..

sweat trickling..

that kid look like he just came out of the swimming pool.

so we reached.. and i ended up sitting rite beside grandma

'lighting the path' for her, from morning.. till 7

den we start all the ritual..

follow by the burning of the house.

so Conclusion?

TIRING....

my dog crosses her legs .. but still expose her.. **** lol

dear dear gave me this

2007-03-15T18:32:00.000-07:00

hehehe. How excited

But he say still got something else he wanna give me..

just dun say wat is is gonna be!!

Though i am no fan of branded stuff

i got a contrabrand Gucci heheheeeeeeeeee

To think i always say someone

is cheap cuz she cannot afford branded stuff. so get contrabrand..

but now... i better shut up. lol

cuz i got a CONTRAbrand! hehehe

But no mater wat. its the tot that counts.

Thanks DEArryyyy

XOXO!

Bought somethign for HER

2007-03-15T08:13:00.000-07:00

Went out with brian in the morning.

At first we are going johor.

But he doesnt wanna go in the end.

So we landed in JurongP where his father have to drop us

so i was dragged into the arcade for almost two hours...

standing there...

watching pple play...

2 hours...

ironically.. i seem to enjoy a fair bit.

someone managed to finish the whole 'soldier' game

After that.. that kid said. 'im hungry'

and the first word... MAC...

well i 'rolled my eyes'

den he said. "okok. kfc"

den i tell him that is much better.

gawd.. i dun have to eat mAC evertime i went out with a kid rite...

In the end.. that punk ended up stuffing his mouth with

CHEESE fries...

he look like his gona choke to death..

after that... we walk and walk..

shop here and dere..

den i brought that kid to the pet store

and i bought a dog toy for HER. It drove her mad at first.. but in the end. it made me mad. cuz she keep pushing it and making it drop downstair.s. - making me pick in stead...................................................................

the rest of the day.. at the funeral. siting there fold paper all the way until late in the nite....

Wats worse when two tradgedies happen in a day

2007-03-13T20:29:00.000-07:00

my grandma passed away
my bf wanna initiate a breakup?

Those are enough to kill me for the day

sucky Day

2007-03-12T01:24:00.000-07:00

I HATE TODAY
HATE IT HATE IT HATE IT HATE IT!
i dun think i get the job.
F.U.C.K

MY NEW TATTOO of the week

2007-03-08T06:23:00.000-08:00

i got a new tatoo today. all thanks to ah girl.

Sometimes.. it really makes me wonder if i have actually become one of this 'dog slave' in this society... or that i am the onli one that does not know how to protect myself from a four legged vicious claws..... Or maybe that it thought was supposedly to be some kind of a playful pawing at the owner. - that is causing the owner.. PAIN

Anyway.. we just have this LOVE HATE relationship. Sometimes i just hope she will drop dead. Yet sometimes i cry over the tot of leaving her to some kampong pple which everyone so in the family was encouraging me to do... and i can seeem to foresee vivdly axactly the same cycle that REPEATS itself.. Of me having fun with my dogs for period of time before it was sent off again in my daddy's car to an unknown future.. i just cannot stand the tot of REPEATING the same catastrophe.. its too horrible to even imagine.. yet to even do it...AGAIN

Watever... i love her . PERIOD.

OHhhh noo....

2007-03-06T20:49:00.000-08:00

i think i spoilt the razor.
theres a pop sound and its dead
maybe i have to buy one for mother in law ler. hehehehe...

sorry dear dear...
didnt mean to spoil it..
was shaving ah girl... den pop gone liao...
maybe overheat ler... how?

Another Monday

2007-03-04T21:11:00.000-08:00

Waking up thinking i can dip straight into the pool.
Who noes.. i ended up facing the metal grates of the pool, with absolutly no one around.. really makes me feel like a fool.

In the end.. i poo poo at the sports council and head back home..

So here i am siting right here. waiting for the time to tick
So that i can swim.. and cool down at such a heat.
Im so glad at least its not raining..
though it means.. i might get another tan...

Absolutely hate getting tanned...
cuz my dear doesnt like it..lol

later!

READ THIS!

2007-03-02T22:52:00.000-08:00

DEAR DEAR!!

D ASked me for a freelance job ! hehehe!

see i no need to look for job. job look for me! eheheeheheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

Say i will be meeting her this coming tusday ler.

will update you later. hehehe

time and venue all fix liao.

Dear dear. love you DEEP DEEP!

.................................................................................

DeAR~

an update for you on the food we ate that gathering nite!

its a happy gathering. i enjoyed the food..and my friends!

2007-03-01T01:00:00.005-08:00

HAHAHAH

2007-03-01T01:00:00.003-08:00

I ADDED YOUR SKYPE CREDIT
luv you loads!

What a morning

2007-02-27T18:52:00.000-08:00

Woke up like some kinda night mare.
Dreamt goes like this. C makes me go completely head over heels with him. Cheated many into having sex with him. and also get alot of many as the woman he tricked into bed have given him all the money. lol . Gawd. To think i dreamt of such nonsense. i woke up but keep wanting to sleep on - in hope i can dream of how i can catch this thug in my dream and kick his ass. lol . But i failed. cuz ah girl is nudgeing on my gate. REMINDING me to bring her to do the double P(pee & poo) lol

The ching ching ching downstairs this morning is cleaning up. Seems like that fella funeral has ended at last. and ah girl is so scared of all the yellow canvas spreads that were lying all over the floor. Sometimes i wonder wat's her motto.. tot dogs are to protect the owner.. hmm..

Ah girl ate alot of grass just now by the canal. i knew somehow she is not well. So i allow her. Ended up she vomited later as expected and felt alot better. Guess she had too much acid in her tummy =)

When i reached home , i was famished. craving for the eggy and the red beans, i gobbled them up and den remmebered that i dun think i fed ah girl last nite... (opps) therefore am preparing her food now.

Swimming.. got me these...

2007-02-27T03:20:00.000-08:00

TANLINES>.... < !!!

Dear dear i noe you not gonna like it.. but still i think you need to see this. hehe...

Miss you dear...

2007-02-26T04:36:00.000-08:00

<--Sunset is always very pretty from my mom's kitchen. i should have taken a portrait of this. In fact this picture is taken alittle too late for you to see. When the sun sets.. the whole sky is orange.

Dear Dear. Girl girl went down the stair by herself again.. and made me go look for her after twenty mins... i climbed all the way up the stairs with her to reach my house... shes starting to make me feel fat.. really.. cuz i was half dead by the time i get up and she! as my mother said was FAT as well, seems to be panting as much as i do. lol Guess we both need a workout. I guess my Dear Dear will make me work out more when he comes back from his work trip hehehe.

Today is another day i grab her by the neck to shower cuz i cannot stand the sight of her scratching. For your information .. i have removed her beatiful hat after much observation. She always poke me with her hat when she climbs up the stairs - fighting for who to reach the top first..

I realise that i really have to be fierce when i want her attention and for her to obey. CUZ IT WORKS!! wow. It's a bit stupid to realise after a year to two of adopting her though...

Dear Dear... i really miss you loads. When you tell me 28more days.. my heart sank again.. its like waiting for the impossible.. tats like one month more to go...

Little Brian, my sister and Harry came to the house to eat. The only son, who requested to have his mee sua... is not yet to arrive. 8.48pm time check. Made his mother wait. Thank you very much.

Tonite i have a lousy appetite to eat. My mom really cook a fantastic dinner with duck and chicken.. soup and all that... But it seems like my stomach is turning inside out at the sight of those food.. Instead right now i am craving for plain porridge with some luncheon meat hehe.

My Room is loads tidier now. Thanks to dad for shifting his stocks.=)

TiREd!!

2007-02-25T02:15:00.000-08:00

OwWwwwwww~ Please dun ask me go to the shop...
cuz i DrEaD iT!

Went to the shop this morning. Thank goodness we are driving there.. if you ask me to walk there this morning.. i could have simply said.. "lightning.. pls struck me first so tat you can put me back to sleep before i even step a foot out the doorstep."

So the Hot UnBEaRAble SunliGht just smiled and BLAZed happily above.. while my eyes were half wide open... with the constant battling with the 'Z' monster. The Yawning seem to influenced my mom a little. haha. Then i asked. " When is he coming.." she said "By 10am" and i look at my mom's clock and i ask her again.. " you sure its by ten in the morning or night.. Cuz it is ******** 1pm alreayd..." and she sure gave a look that i do not know how to put into words. Maybe i should say.. somewhat dissapointment and 'no choice' kind of feeling, that she finds it 'unspeakable'.

Finally he arrived.. with that piss off look...as if the whole world seem to owe him.. den suddenly ironically talked to me.. starting the lamest but most used topic of when my bf coming back blabla. THEN! The Body conversation: "i have the same virus that attacked my spoilt com in this new com that i have now. Den you guys keep calling me to rush me here."

My conclusion? come on... they give you time off with pay until ten plus.. you one plus den reach... They pay you. Think pple will even care if your dog die? Not to say a virus which is what!? to them?... When the boss say ten? its ten. PeRioD~!

When i showed no interest in his virus Topic.. Supposedly he got a little mad and said. " Arent you going out? wher you going? you can leave now. NoTHInG you can do here."<--when i said wait for dad to return from the toilet. That sentence above? i wish some guy could just doggy hound him. Here i am relieving you ********* FOC and there you talk BIG!

I slept long just now.. four hours i guess. Ah girl needs to be caned. Mom said she barked at her when she came home to Stew this pot of yummy herbal chicken.. I wake up not because of doggie. But cuz of the AROooooMa~ mmMMmmmMMmmmm

Oh remember about the Fridge comparison thingy dated two to three days ago? Take a look at my mom's ProuD FriDGe~!

<--See my mom's Fridge? IT GLOWS This is what ah girl calls the LORD. When she leaves the world, shes gonna be Goin to a land FILLED with this!!

LooKing forward for someone to call me.. Love you loads!

Ah girl girl~

2007-02-23T10:06:00.000-08:00

<--Dear dear.. think i am going to look like girl sooner or later... so gloomy.. so sian.. cannot scratch her back side or lick her 'cb' lolll just joking.

These days while im at my parents home.. i cook all the dinner.. Mom was requesting that i try to finish all the things in her fridge so that she can put one more chicken and duck for bai bai.. dunno which day.. den i was thinking... wah... here.. the fridge very poor thing.. so damn packed with food.. is it overworking? wherelse.. the other fella's fridge is empty and filled with rotten stuff. (cuz obviously no one is hardworking enough to cook or clear the rotten stuffs) LOL!

Heard from mom that this evening they are suppose to go over to my bro house for dinner. But after a while it has been cancelled.. And mom called me to ask me to cook for her.. at first i am going out.. but i think.. since this happen.. i cook lor. Reason for the cancellation. Someone said the stove ran out of gas... 'something worth to think about' ahaha.

Tonights dinner.. i forget to take picture.. maybe saturday dinner i will take picture. hehehe. Just now i brought ah girl to the canal and walk again. Guess she quite enjoy off the leash and dissapearing up the slope for a minute or two. Wonder what she does up there when im down at the canal path here....

Dear dear i miss you ah..... LOAd loads.....loads....loads....

YAWNzzZz~

2007-02-21T20:03:00.000-08:00

A Boring Day to start With...

Woke up with almost nothing to do.. walking around the house and staring at those junks in my room.. with me cant do anything about them.. they are like a fixture in my room.. for good.. in which im damn DEPRESSEd with it...
HOW AM I SUPPOSE TO LIVE in a STORE ROOM looking BEDROOM!!!!

GAWD... when are they gonna move those stuffs... and to where can they move it... Lets put it this way.. its either they gonna sleep in 'storerooms' or me..

Come to think of it... NO CHOICE... damnit...

=(

xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Dear dear. i got my SD already. hehehehe. But this means i cant really ask your mama to help me transfer funds already hehe. =)

I just got my security device this evening.. maybe it has already been in the letter box for a couple of days. When i received it. i was quite excited. cuz i get to choose my sticker to stick on it. hahahah. Still think i like pink better. Guess wat. their white with grey design got printing problem i think.. something like out of ink like that. hehe.

Dear dear... DAy 2 only.. and i miss you loads alreayd... Do you think i will get used to it as the weeks or days go by???

Holly molly

2007-02-20T19:22:00.000-08:00

Everything has got to start with a first day.

Today is the first day:
1) I moved back to my parents house
2) I am permanently staying in my parent's house
3) My dog is permanently staying in my parents house
4) My bf is paying for my internet service
5) He left for Brunei to work for five weeks or more
6) I found a Mongrel lover club forum to live with
7) I have to start packing everything in my room..(its a total MESS!! for god sake)
8) When i say that the Chinese New Year is OVER and DONE with...
9) Last but not least.. the first day where i am going to start over new.

**Oh just a note. Someone say she is going to pay me all S$500 by end of March when i returned her the set of keys.
Heh. Lets just see if she does wat she says. Wanna Bet? i dun think shes gonna pay.
HAHAHA ~

sweet misery.. a money lent out and take years to come back...

Dear dear,
Set up a little column of us hehehe